Can you honestly say it was worth it?
Posted on Sunday, February 10, 2008 at 8:09 AM by Duncan Bouwer
I can. On a purely practical level, I stood a good chance of getting aids. The kind of sex practised by homosexuals most often includes use of alcohol and drugs, and certainly did in my case, and one tends to be a little lax about protection under those circumstances.
I would not have wanted to continue as I was. I was an intelligent man who would never have been able to think of myself as anything but an ageing 18-year old, talented, but never able to come into my own because of my profound brokenness.
But most deeply, if I had let my homosexuality stand between me and God for ever, I would never have got to know Jesus, and this would have been the defining tragedy of my life. The Christ Principle does not have the compassion of the flesh-and-bone Jesus whom I serve and love, and who gives profound meaning and purpose to my life. I worship him because he has saved me from myself and destruction. He has given me new life which has enabled me to be adopted into the family of Yahweh, and so I will worship him eternally, sharing with him in never ending joy of his presence.
Yes, it has been worth it!